~firefly-kitsune

Ok. Call me a fuckin brat now. I dont care anymore. This summer has sucked. The worst ever. Not only have I not gone to Hershey, but the one place Ive wanted to go ALL fuckin summer long which is the god damn beach, I cant go. My sisters are going. I have the money to help pay but oh no. My sisters hate my guts after i said something to one of them and they didnt pay attention and rear ended someone. So guess what! My rid to anywhere, wont drive me, EVER AGAIN. I dont get my permit till February. I have no means of transportation. Alot of people I thought and considered my friends apparently hated my guts, which means that most likely the one friend I had when i needed her hates me and goes with a person she met once! My allergies are an ass. My moms holding the fact that she payed for me to go to Catholic school when it was all her idea in the first place! and the fact that omg if I fuck up again in school Shes going to go to jail. heh. Real nice to hold over your daughter. I already am unstable as it is now. Im going to a place i hate, not to mention im allergic to my room and cant go there so i hate my house but i cant get out. Theres no damn safe place for me. Im trying to deal with relationships the best i can both mine and friends. Im trying to be responsiable, im trying to be a good girl. But no matter what i do i fuck up. Clearly my meds dont work. I cant get off the meds that dont work or ill get worse. Im basically alone again. and cant trust a damn soul but possible two or three people.

Oh yes. Thank You Fucking Desuland. Get over your damn selves. Stop making fucking fun of me. ok!? You could have told me you hated me. I would have stopped coming. And im sure you all have takin my friend away and made her hate my guts too. So get over it already. Stop fucking hacking peoples accounts and fucking up their reputation just cause they stuck up for me. Ok?! yeah. Now will you all just shut the fuck up about it Desuland?

Now, seeing as i have the most well known people in the drawing circuit and such hating my ass and wanting me dead, Im not drawing. Not that I even felt like it recently. but still. Oh yes. And for taking my Phoenix away. Thanks. You helped a lot. she doesnt even talk much to me now. ok? So are you fucking happy yet Desuland!? The only people I could find to even think about caring for me hate me and are ditching me.

Which brings me to the fucking relization no one will believe. Im a fucking two timing slutty Whore. An annoying Bitch,a "Drama Whore", Pretty as hell, Fucked up in the head, all about myself, Gains only for my own gain, a people pleasure. The failure at all life, a twit, a child, a spoiled brat, a really fucking Bad drawer. oh is there anything else? If so please do contribute!

Yeah. I dont see why my girlfriend is even still with me. She shouldnt be. I'll just hurt her and thats the thing i never wanted. Im no good for anyone. Im worse then a murder, i play with peoples hearts and minds twist them around and watch them go crazy as i laugh! But Ill never hurt her on purpose. I love her I do. With all my heart, whats left and not black I guess.

I am the prince/princess of darkness. Get over it. Ill never be perfect or innocent and pure like how everyone sees. Im not that. Im a devil in an angels outfit. so everyone should just get away while they can. Before I apparently fuck you over to.